When i was about 6 or 7yrs old my parents signed me up to be on a all girls soccer team. We were the green team and i was just pumped! I remember one game my dad had video taped. The game felt intense yet so exciting. All the parents were cheering us on the sidelines although i didn't seem to notice them too much. All i knew was dad was there and excited to see me play. I remember the opposing team had kicked it towards our side of the net, so i charged that ball and kicked it as hard as i could. Then without skipping a beat i ran to dad on the sidelines, paying no attention to the game. It literally looked like i was about to run off the field. With a kinda desperate longing look and voice i cried out in excitement, "DAD! DAD! DID I DO A GOOD JOB DAD???". He then lovingly responded with much enthusiasm, "Yes baby girl, you did such a good job. I'm so proud of you, your doing great". In the video my face practically exploded with joy as i turned running back into my position on the field.
I will never forget that moment. That year we lost every single game, but it didn't matter because dad didn't care if i lost. Winning or loosing in soccer was never a priority for my dad. He constantly encouraged me and cheered me on. He was always so proud of me. I always did perfect in his eyes and that's all i cared about. Soccer soon became my favorite sport and i was good at it. I loved it. When the yells on the sidelines from all the parents and my coach railed on throughout the game, I never heard them. I only heard my dads voice. When i scored a goal, i would instantly look at my dad on the sidelines to see his face glowing with approval and rejoice. I was passionate about every moment on that field. Where did i get such a drive and passion you wonder? It was my dads approving love. His love set me on fire when i played soccer, and its all i longed for.
Every child was created to receive loving affirmation from a loving Daddy every single day. When they don't get it the way their hearts needed, it leaves a life long hole. It leaves a kind of empty unworthiness. It leaves you deep down feeling unloved and not good enough. Passion and joy are at times a hard thing to live in because your drive from a loving father is missing. the only way this wound can heal, is to be filled with that same loving affirmation from a Daddy every day. No one or nothing can fill that hole. This part of your heart was created to only be filled by a Dad, therefore only a Dad can fill it!
